Nick Kyrgios has revealed his battle with serious depression and substance abuse in a raw social media post about mental health.
The Australian tennis entertainer has opened up about one of the « darkest periods » in his life around the time of the 2019 Australian Open.
The 26-year-old said he was struggling so much he turned to self-harming.
« Most would assume I was doing OK mentally or enjoying my life … it was one of my darkest periods, » Kyrgios wrote on Instagram, accompanied by a picture of him at training.
« If you look closely, on my right arm you can see my self harm.
« I was having suicidal thoughts and was literally struggling to get out of bed, let alone play in front of millions.
« I was lonely, depressed, negative, abusing alcohol, drugs, pushed away family & friends.
« I felt as if I couldn’t talk or trust anyone.
« This was a result of not opening up and refusing to lean on my loved ones and simply just push myself little by little to be positive.
« I know that day to day life can seem extremely exhausting, impossible at times.
« I understand that you feel if you open up it may make you feel weak, or scared.
« I’m telling you right now, it’s OK, you are not alone.
« I’ve been through those times when it seemed as if those positive energetic vibes were never ever going to be reality. »
Kyrgios, who went on an extraordinary run at the Australian Open with Thanasi Kokkinakis to claim an unlikely doubles title last month, said he was now in a much better place in his life.
« ‘I’m proud to say I’ve completely turned myself around and have a completely different outlook on everything, I don’t take one moment for granted.
« I want you to be able to reach your full potential and smile. This life is beautiful. »
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